Am I

Salam,

Its been 4 days of Eid holiday, and i have spent my time at my strangered home.

It looks different,(after the renovation)

it feels different,

it's not the same,

It's my home.

I have come back and listen for hours on problems.

everything is so sad

everything is so tensed

everything is so...

it is a stressful life, when u think about it, it became more and more stressful. sometimes letting go is the best measure. everyone is growing one after another with their phase and problems. some very rebellious, some grown but never matures.

WHY ME? why I have to think, isnt it enough what i have done? yes i am tired. but something that always keep me going, if its not me who else? if its not me,she cant take it.

But, I have my life. I dream high above. Too high that might be one day i have to leave them for awhile.

But can they be ok?

would they ever understand?

I am like a Father now, though I always been. whenever im feeling very low, I know that Allah bring this up to grow me up in one or another way.

I pray and pray and pray "Allah, lessen the burden for her, lessen the burden for her, lessen the burden for her, lessen the burden for my siblings, open up their mind and heart, and God give me strength"

Years after years, everything is getting old. That old lady, down there "Allah give her health and happiness, and let her be with us"

because without her, I dnt know if i could.

hungry ghost

in love with the hunger

me as the dish

bored.

started and ending

"how it begins"

In a blink of an eye, everything move forward.

leaving those behind.

"the team of my campaign"

its already been 2 years me in studying in Melaka, it has change me so much.

been 7 months since Baba left us : (

also change me.

"love you guys weyh"

i am very reluctant as i always be, its my nature. it never change until one sweet call that god have create a path for me, and that path really thought the real meaning of being somebody.

that call is being a high Committee for my Faculty club, the loved KOMED.

it started when i was in semester 3, i was elected

when asked by Madam Wan "why you want to be in KOMED?"

"how it end"

Honestly i answer, "i want to find something to love and to hold on in Melaka."

well KOMED does that to me a lot, i put out everything on hold just because of KOMED,

i stay on weekends, make people see me as a good boy:P, and make a fashion lover like me dull and boring because i have to show them proper way of dressing.

even my family in the moment after my dad left i still cling on KOMED and dint let anything go on it. i gave my commitment to this.

HEY I ALSO PUT OUT INVITATIONS TO FASHION SHOWS FOR KOMED!

OMG=(

guess what my year with KOMED is over, we had our new commitee line up. and me; is back to the normal track of a student.

I am really glad i was given the opportunity to be in KOMED, to work with other amazing committee, to feel the challenge, and to be it.

Trust me its all sweat and tears, tensed!

NOT ABOUT POPULARITY!

its great weyh, just to let this go its like letting go something really big out of my life. i am now more free and clueless- like the normal kid felt. yeay.

wow never thought, but i did it, we did it. congratulations KOMED 2009/2010.

how does it go?

its been 1 month plus since semester end and i havent wrap up a post about semester 4 in lendu.

how does time go so fast.

seems to me it was like last semester i attend my MMS week, and now, im one of the senior in charge. wow.

everything is going too fast.

after quite a wake up call of my dad departure, i have lots in mind

between family-passion- dreams-fashion-fashion- education- siblings

everything intertwined in my head.

semester 4 been a very relax semester, subjects i hve taken are:

publishing

publication

broadcasting

economics

advertising

issues in modern Malaysia

different environment with different lectures it gives me more challenges to cater them. we have to do a booklet, go to publishing house, study more theory, report after report and god its done

during exams i was so scared of Advertising and broadcasting.

so the result is out. again alhamdullilah, i got into deans list. best pointer in my record. hope i could keep it up next semester. i got one b+ , which is broadcasting. told ya kids, im not broadcasting people!

thank you lectures, Ms Syida, Ms zuliani, Ms Linda, Ms Maizura Mansor, and Ms Maizura. thank you friends, teammates, classmates, mother, and everyone. and juniors:D

THANK YOU LOVE

today

its my birthday.

oh.

Daulat Tuanku

long live Sultan and Permaisuri Agong

may Malaysia live in peace and harmony under his ruling

and may Allah bless and guide him.